Mo is giving the shot

Tonight Mo decided to try giving me the shot because he doesn't like to depend on smeone from outside. i couldn't give it to myself as i was scared but he did and it was just fine.....yaaaaaaaay...now i can depend on him to give me all the shots from now on :)

First Lucrin Shot

Tonight we went to the hospital to find a nurse to give me the Lucrin shot. we know we are going to have so many shots in the future so we had to find someone to depend on. it didn't hurt at all...i took it in my leg and it was just fine and the nurse told us that she is there almost everyday which is quite a relief.

First Surgery

Today i had a small surgery in the morning. It was the first time in my life to take anesthetic. I was so nervous. they asked us to come to the clinic at 9 but i entered the surgery room at 12 so 3 hours of anxiety. i was also fasting and asked not to enter the bathroom to have a full bladder. during the waiting i read a bit in "الفيل الازرق" and watched "اولاد العم" movie on the tv in the room




The surgery was to check my uterus in details and decide the place where they will but the embryos later on. during the surgery they found some extras in my uterus and they removed them which is something that is a bit painful now.



After i woke up i found Mo still watching the movie. he was so supportive today.



We took the lucrin shots and sme antibiotic and went back home.

The journey begins

Today was my first day in the IVF journey. I had an ultra sound while having my period which is a very disgusting thing but it's a requirment to check the lining of the uterus. The doctor said that it looks ok, i had blood test to check my hormones and they gave me some vitamins to start taking tomorrow.

Be Content

When I see clearly

When I See Clearly...

When I see clearly, I recognize the beauty and wonder in the trees and the flowers, and I feel the sense of awe that the wonder causes in me.

When I see clearly, I recognize the fears that other people feel when they deal with the rest of the world, and I stop judging them based on misperceptions.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the things that seem negative in my life also have their positive sides, and when I look more closely I see that those positive sides are stronger than what I see as negative.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the actions of other people that seem to be rude and obnoxious usually are a cry for attention, and I can help those people by giving them some needed attention (though not necessarily on their terms).

When I see clearly, I recognize that my world is an eternal world of spirit, and that all the things that are happening in life now will pass like the breeze, while the eternal part of myself will go on no matter what I have or don't have.

When I see clearly, I recognize that I won't always see the results of my actions, and that I need to let go of my need to see those results if I want to foster my own peace of mind and spirit.

When I see clearly, I recognize that I am a part of a community of people that are interconnected and interdependent, and that I need to be an active part of that community on the level that best suits who I am.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the fresh air, the blue or cloudy skies, the sunshine and the snow, the winds and the rains, are all gifts that maintain the precarious balance of this beautiful planet on which we live.

When I see clearly, I recognize that other people aren't necessarily wrong just because I don't agree with them, and that there may be something important to learn from the people who disagree with me the most.

When I see clearly, I recognize the fact that I'm a very special person who has very special gifts, and that I'm just as deserving of my respect and love as anyone else is.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the mistakes that I and others make are part of being human, are part of the need to learn through experience, and should be dealt with accordingly and not judged harshly. Some learn more slowly than others, and thus will make more mistakes.

When I see clearly, I recognize my need to be me, to be true to me, and to be the best me I possibly can be. I have a responsibility to the other people in this world to do to others as I would have done to me, to speak to others as I would be spoken to, to give more than I would receive.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the world is a beautiful place full of wonders, that I am a beautiful person full of potential, and that each person around me is beautiful and loving and doing his or her best to make the best of life.

~ Tom Walsh

Valentine Flowers

Flowers from Mo :)

Whitney Houston R.I.P.

Galal Amer R.I.P.

مصر هى امى

New York I Love You

I saw this tonight. It's just a light movie of different stories from New York

Funny how can one city hold this variety of stories

حداد

Black Wednesday

Port Said Stadium

My Heart is bleeding for what is happening tonight in Port Said.

The Road

Just remember that things you put into your head are there forever, he said.

You might want to think about that.

CORMAC MCCARTHY, THE ROAD

Control

I need to learn to control myself

I should stop sharing everything i feel or everything i think of

I need to stop being annoying

Jan 29- 5 Things I am Grateful For

1-My Mind

2-My Heart

3-Friends Series

4-Vitamins

5-The ability to forget

I hope you know...

Your credit with God

I think if we have good credit with God, he doesn't allow us to make bad

deeds no matter how hard we try.

It's Over

I had to end it. It hurts really bad but i had too.

I know i won't regret it because it was the right thing to do

and i believe that if something is meant to be, it will happen.

if not, then it was never meant to be.

However, i think i'll always have this wish in my heart

that maybe someday we will....

A Turning Point

j'adore

Jan 10- 5 Things I am Grateful For

1-Digestive Biscuit

2-Nescafe

3-Work

4-شاب كشك Book

5-Mana2eesh

Good Will Hunting

Will: I don't care if Helen of Troy walks in the room, that's Game 6!

Sean: Oh, Helen of Troy...

Will: Oh my God; and who are these fuckin' friends of yours, they let you get away with that?

Sean: Oh... they had to.

Will: W-w-w-what'd you say to them?

Sean: I just slid my ticket across the table, and I said, "Sorry, guys; I gotta see about a girl."

Will: I gotta go see about a girl?

Sean: Yeah.

Will: That's what you said? And they let you get away with that?

Sean: Oh, yeah. They saw in my eyes that I meant it.

Will: You're kiddin' me.

Sean: No, I'm not kiddin' you, Will. That's why I'm not talkin' right now about some girl I saw at a bar twenty years ago and how I always regretted not going over and talking to her. I don't regret the 18 years I was married to Nancy. I don't regret the six years I had to give up counseling when she got sick. And I don't regret the last years when she got really sick. And I sure as hell don't regret missin' the damn game. That's regret.

The decision

It seems to be the hardest decision to take

I never thought i'll be put in such situation

To choose between what is right and my happiness

I know my happiness is there but it will be wrong

I'll never forgive myself if i do it

I think i'll follow my MIND :(

Reading

Ocean of Secrets

A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets

-Old Rose, Titanic

Jan 4- 5 Things I am Grateful For

1-My Car (Tamatem)

2-My Parents

3-My Brother

4-Sausage

5-Blogs

Love

Your Happiness

“Love is when the other person’s happiness is more important than your own.”
H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Get Out

Heart or Mind

When they don't seem to agree, which one shall i follow? My heart or my mind?

Jan 3- 5 Things I am Grateful For

1-Headphones (They help when ppl are talking beside you while you want to concentrate at work)

2-Gummy bears

3-Hand cream

4-ipod

5-Car freshner

Jan 2- 5 Things I am Grateful For

1-Orange Juice

2-Google

3-The Sun (Since it didn't show up today and i am feeling gloomy because of this)

4-Water

5-Face Masks

Try something new for 30 days

I am trying the idea of taking a picture everyday for the next 30 days...sounds interesting

Jan 1- 5 Things I am Grateful For

1-New Beginnings

2-Pain Killers

3-Chocolate

4-Turkish Series

5-Romantic Comedy Movies

New Year's Eve @ Home

We spent it @ home

we had

Pizza

Snacks

Gifts

And

Twix Tart :)

Back To Blogging

A new year means a new start so i am starting again to blog about things that grab my attention while i am living this thing called life.

Happy New Year !!

I hope it's going to be better than last year and i hope it makes me a better person. Ameen