Mo is giving the shot

Tonight Mo decided to try giving me the shot because he doesn't like to depend on smeone from outside. i couldn't give it to myself as i was scared but he did and it was just fine.....yaaaaaaaay...now i can depend on him to give me all the shots from now on :)

First Lucrin Shot

Tonight we went to the hospital to find a nurse to give me the Lucrin shot. we know we are going to have so many shots in the future so we had to find someone to depend on. it didn't hurt at all...i took it in my leg and it was just fine and the nurse told us that she is there almost everyday which is quite a relief.

First Surgery

Today i had a small surgery in the morning. It was the first time in my life to take anesthetic. I was so nervous. they asked us to come to the clinic at 9 but i entered the surgery room at 12 so 3 hours of anxiety. i was also fasting and asked not to enter the bathroom to have a full bladder. during the waiting i read a bit in "الفيل الازرق" and watched "اولاد العم" movie on the tv in the room




The surgery was to check my uterus in details and decide the place where they will but the embryos later on. during the surgery they found some extras in my uterus and they removed them which is something that is a bit painful now.



After i woke up i found Mo still watching the movie. he was so supportive today.



We took the lucrin shots and sme antibiotic and went back home.

The journey begins

Today was my first day in the IVF journey. I had an ultra sound while having my period which is a very disgusting thing but it's a requirment to check the lining of the uterus. The doctor said that it looks ok, i had blood test to check my hormones and they gave me some vitamins to start taking tomorrow.

Be Content

When I see clearly

When I See Clearly...

When I see clearly, I recognize the beauty and wonder in the trees and the flowers, and I feel the sense of awe that the wonder causes in me.

When I see clearly, I recognize the fears that other people feel when they deal with the rest of the world, and I stop judging them based on misperceptions.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the things that seem negative in my life also have their positive sides, and when I look more closely I see that those positive sides are stronger than what I see as negative.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the actions of other people that seem to be rude and obnoxious usually are a cry for attention, and I can help those people by giving them some needed attention (though not necessarily on their terms).

When I see clearly, I recognize that my world is an eternal world of spirit, and that all the things that are happening in life now will pass like the breeze, while the eternal part of myself will go on no matter what I have or don't have.

When I see clearly, I recognize that I won't always see the results of my actions, and that I need to let go of my need to see those results if I want to foster my own peace of mind and spirit.

When I see clearly, I recognize that I am a part of a community of people that are interconnected and interdependent, and that I need to be an active part of that community on the level that best suits who I am.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the fresh air, the blue or cloudy skies, the sunshine and the snow, the winds and the rains, are all gifts that maintain the precarious balance of this beautiful planet on which we live.

When I see clearly, I recognize that other people aren't necessarily wrong just because I don't agree with them, and that there may be something important to learn from the people who disagree with me the most.

When I see clearly, I recognize the fact that I'm a very special person who has very special gifts, and that I'm just as deserving of my respect and love as anyone else is.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the mistakes that I and others make are part of being human, are part of the need to learn through experience, and should be dealt with accordingly and not judged harshly. Some learn more slowly than others, and thus will make more mistakes.

When I see clearly, I recognize my need to be me, to be true to me, and to be the best me I possibly can be. I have a responsibility to the other people in this world to do to others as I would have done to me, to speak to others as I would be spoken to, to give more than I would receive.

When I see clearly, I recognize that the world is a beautiful place full of wonders, that I am a beautiful person full of potential, and that each person around me is beautiful and loving and doing his or her best to make the best of life.

~ Tom Walsh

Valentine Flowers

Flowers from Mo :)

Whitney Houston R.I.P.

Galal Amer R.I.P.

مصر هى امى

New York I Love You

I saw this tonight. It's just a light movie of different stories from New York

Funny how can one city hold this variety of stories

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